[ Underneath that stare, Mira feels almost too esposed.Like flesh stripped from the bone, almost. It should make them turn tail and run, and they'd be lying if they said they weren't considering it.
Could they really leave, though? That gaze isn't the only thing holding them in place. Warmth from another's body like this is hard to find. Cutting it off here and now would be the easier, kinder thing for them both. Cowardice has served them well this whole time, has helped them survive.
What is it about him, about this, that overrides that? It's not just his hand around their length, drawing out a gasp, a low moan. Terrified of falling apart completely, they hold onto his shoulders, rocking into his grip, and--
Oh. Mira swallows hard, then nods. Instinct nearly takes over and prompts them to ask if he's sure, but if he weren't, they know he wouldn't ask. ]
Yeah. [ They draw in a sharp breath, then laugh lightly. ] You're going to end up spoiling me, aren't you?
[ Spoiling is an understatement. This is the first time they've allowed it, allowed themselves to selfishly take instead of giving. ]
[ In the service of degeneracy and these abstract boundaries between them, his grip splays out, like he can tamp down desire if he's only quick about it. Given all of these extremes in pleasure, Tartaglia drowns so easily. His touch pours over them only to pull taut at the last second, forcing them to fuck right into his fist with every other tug. Riding off of this high, there's so much scathing warmth here that it's a miracle he isn't burning clean out of his skin.
Insatiable with his touch, Tartaglia's fingers are stretched out, palming down their cock with deepening strokes. Beating them off isn't just a slick and unrelenting act, it's a bid for attention, trying to captivate them with just his hand when he pumps them from tip to base. It's probably a little filthy and obscene, letting all of his thoughts melt to nothing when Mira's hips cant forward with so much urgency. Tartaglia's hand flexes just once before clutching tighter, far more deliberate than before. Nothing that takes the edge off, voice unspooling by their ear. ]
[ Caught on that knife edge between pleasure and pain, Mira cries out. If this is how it's going to be, then they want this (him) again and again, until they're sick of him. Dangerous doesn't begin to describe him and whatever this thing between them is, because this is the sort of thing they can't resist coming back to.
Tartaglia doesn't hold back. Just the opposite: He pushes them past the limits they thought they'd known so well. No complaints here, though, because if they did they would have made him stop.
Undeterred and near-desperate for more, they fuck into his fist. Tartaglia's back is going to be a mess when all is said and done. Their nails dig in deeper, voice halfway to wrecked with every punched-out sound Tartaglia pulls from them.
Make them worse, huh? Mira turns their head and presses a hot, open-mouthed kiss to his neck before biting down. ]
I'd like to see you try, [ they manage, sliding a hand into his hair and pulling hard. Right into his ear-- ] Ruin me.
[ Groping them to hardness, Tartaglia's testing his own patience. His hand encircles them only to clench up like a clutching vise when those fingers drag all over his back, wet and spasmodic and carving into ceaseless warmth. Pretty harsh flex on Mira's part to relent to gouging at his shoulderblades, needy and wanting and stranded in the slow dissolve of sensation. It's a head-trip to describe the feeling, pain immersed in unrelenting pleasure.
Fingers forcibly uncurling, Tartaglia's thumbing down hard on the slit of their dick, groan just that side of keening, run so ragged. ]
Keep talking like that and I'll split you open. [ Vying for acknowledgement, he's thawing out. Even this soreness falling into his throat around those teeth is nothing to the aching length of his cock, left ignored in favor of beating Mira off. ] I wanna fuck you until you break. Think you'd let that happen?
[ Thinking is pretty damn difficult right now, but they make a sound in the back of their throat, desperate and gasping. It's good, so good, and the idea of Tartaglia inside them, wrecking them--
Considering it? Of course they are. Even better if he fucks like he fights. Locking eyes with him, they don't bother hiding the way their face twists in pure pleasure, the way they arch their back and press their head back into the pillow, their own neck and throat exposed and slick with sweat. ]
If you don't fuck me until I cry-- [ Close, they're so close. Hips thrusting up into his hand, they don't look away, not for a second. ] --I'll kill you.
[ Tartaglia wants to destroy them. It makes them dizzy with pleasure, more than just physical. That desire is a powerful thing, and with one more hoarse cry, they spill over his hand. ]
[ Cradling them through all of that incessant throbbing, his hand comes away so slick and wet. Defiling, in one sense, like the yearning for air in the throat, breathless when he laughs. Some of Mira's spent release is spilling through his hand and he licks, runs his tongue up the long, smearing line over his own fingertips as he sits up, wiping away the rest. How bitter. ]
Normally, I'd... hold you to your word. [ It's a sweet promise, the remants of every failed attempt to strangle the dear life out of him lashing his skin. He'd welcome another go-around of their fight until he could crown Mira, lithe and warm and much too self-destructive, in utter defeat. ] ... But you're not cut out for that right now.
[ Tartaglia's much too young and a little unconscionable to regard the danger, looming over them to grip his own forming erection and beat off into stiffness. Only takes a few strokes, really, turned on and making a very bold attempt to splay Mira's legs open and press his palm along their inner thigh. ]
I only want you. [ Coy with all of his staring, his gaze flickers up only when he's pining for attention. ] Am I what you're after?
[ They're about to object, to tell him that it's fine. Nothing they can't handle. Something stops them, though. Looking up at him, their heart squeezes tight, renders them breathless. For once, it's not the thing inside them that makes their heart ache.
For once, it's something much sweeter. Almost painfully, their breath hitches, and their eyes widen. There's no hiding from this or him. Terrifying, definitely... but maybe that's not at all a bad thing. Because Tartaglia's words, the way he looks at them, that touch against their thigh all leads to the same thought: They never stood a chance.
An answer doesn't come yet. It's hard to talk when words escape them, so their first answer is this: They wrap their arms around his neck and pull him down to kiss him. Filled with too many emotions to do anything but this, their kiss is fierce, desperate, like their life depends on it.
When they finally pull away, they press their palm against his cheek and touch their foreheads together. Trailing their other hand down between his legs, they wrap their hand around his cock and stroke one, twice, three times. ]
You are. [ Another kiss, sweeter and shorter. ] You're the only one I want, too. No one else.
[ Long past reproach, moment's escalating like some deep-seated fever. No time to break for air in the end. The kiss storms through him, his breath fracturing when he's groped back. There are plenty of things Tartaglia should relay, stripping Mira down with his gaze like he could flay them to the bone. But he falls short of all of that, indulging in the hints of tongue as his hand skews down, down, down.
To that end, he's just some wanting creature, haphazardly ransacking his clothes where they're pooling on the bed. It's cold, the bottle of lube and the uncapped lid, more than a fair amount of it dribbling into his hand and onto the sheets when pouring it into his palm. He can't be neat with it. He doesn't bother, and it hasn't quite warmed up yet as he urges their legs to ease apart. All of this very literal dick-stroking doesn't distract him any, singleminded with his intent. ]
Watch me, then. Keep your eyes on me.
[ Going after Mira with the intent to shatter their nerves, Tartaglia can't help blurring the lines between pining and obsession. Urging a finger inside the confines of their ass is a shameless act, made to displace them; he's thumbing around the hole only afterwards, hand crooked as he curls the first finger. Very slick of him, like he isn't working to split Mira open on his touch from rubbing so incessantly. ]
[ It isn't at all difficult to break them open. Eyes on him, they spread their legs more, and even though they feel so exposed and vulnerable in so many ways, it's that first push that makes them forget. Breath hitching sharp and near-painful, it's a moment or several before they relax around his finger.
His gaze pins them in place. No matter what, they know they couldn't look away. They don't want to. There's something about being seen that leaves them equal parts terrified and wanting--wanting him, to feel him, to hold him tight and never let go.
Control is a tricky thing for them. They cling tight to it, because if they don't-- No, it isn't the time for that. Putting themselves in Tartaglia's hands, he's the first to touch them just like this. Too fast, too thoughtless, they'd let it happen as easy as breathing air.
He's the first they'll let inside in every way.
Mira's hands fly to his shoulders and hold on tight. Nails dig into his shoulders, and they stare up at him with wide, hazy eyes. Already half-lost in the curl of his finger, lost in the way he's determined to wreck them from inside, it's like nothing else exists but this. ]
[ Anticipation is running down the length of his spine, baiting something more depraved than fucking them to ruin on his hand. His gaze flickers up, then down again, brought abject and low. Sweet with his hand, he's coaxing Mira to yield to the intrusion, eased with one finger and then sharply plunging in with two. Tartaglia's working them open with such filthy intent, sloppy from the outset and only getting sloppier.
Rubbing Mira to rawness from the inside, he's getting off on the messy, singleminded focus when its turned solely upon him alone. It's a hot, wanton feeling, stalled in place when all that politeness and decorum drops away from Mira's face so that deep, swallowing hunger takes its place.
Plugged up on his hand, Tartaglia scissors his fingers apart, heinous and sweet when he resumes shoving past the flexing rim and the taut ring of muscle. So maybe he's a little attention-starved as well, craving approval so monstrously that he smiles under these delights. ]
Give me your worst, too. I insist.
[ He won't quit the foreplay if they aren't halfway to unraveled and begging for it. ]
[ Too much, but not enough. Not yet. Never has it been like this. Being brought to the point of begging is something they've never allowed. The weight of his gaze presses down on them, renders them breathless.
Their worst, huh? ... That's not a promise they can make, because letting go that much is their worst fear. But-- maybe they can give enough. Maybe they can flirt with that line between them and the thing wrapped tight like a vice around their heart.
Tartaglia wants their worst, so they can trust him with just enough. They fist a hand in his hair, tight and unyielding. At the back of his neck, they curl a hand and yank him down, crushing their lips together. It's messy and sharp and desperate, teeth and tongue and fire. The heat of him and his closeness stokes that fire, leads them to press their thumb into the hollow of his throat.
Biting down on his lip hard, they tighten their grip on his hair. Tonight, they're louder than usual, gasping and moaning and stilted, hitching half-sounds. Stuck in place, they can't tear their eyes away. Tears prick at theirs, the sting drowned out by his determination to tear them apart. ]
Tartaglia-- [ Their voice cracks, close to shattering. ] Please, please, need more, need you--
[ They're so lost in him already, shaking and near breaking apart. The hand in his hair stays, but the other snakes under his arm and grips his shoulder. Clinging tight, they're so, so close, just from his fingers. ]
[ Running out of the moment as it ticks by, Tartaglia's being unfair. Sure enough, he acts contrary to common sense. Caught up in the ferociously wide sprawl of Mira's palm, he's drinking in the kiss and the mean premonition of hurt coming down acidly on his throat. But there's forceful imprisonment, and then there's the idea of voluntarily falling into a pit of his own making. Whether it's Childe, or Tartaglia, or Ajax, these names sink worse than stones, each one more untruthful than the last. Right now, they're only forms of entanglement he keeps around, much like turning towards the sun and allowing blindness. Just something to be called by, in place of what he once was. But he forgets that, listening to Mira keen as he seizes up under his touch.
Three days could stretch to three months in a place where no light could reach anyone alive, and the seconds elongate here as well. His perception of time is so warped. Lowering his head against the urgent, confining reach of a chokehold and Mira's other hand, Tartaglia's laughter sounds too much like it was pilfered out of him. ]
How could I refuse when you ask this nicely?
[ So kind, Mira. Not like he can wait, anyways, fingers tugged out where he's spread them open, only to jam them back inside. Out of some meanness, he's probing with immediacy, harsh where he's closest to their prostate. No more shallow thrusts of his hand, just pressure in the place where they'd clenched up hottest around his hand, lube-wet and plugging them. ]
[ Choking out a half-sob, they hold on tighter. Grip tightening on him, they cling to him like a lifeline. Staring down at the edge of a cliff -- that's what it feels like, being caught up in him and his determination to wreck them. Intensity like this threatens to drown them, but as punishing as Tartaglia is, they want to follow it, fall apart completely.
The sound that spills from their lips is part relieved, part frustrated. All mixed up in another bitten-off almost-sob, it melts into a cry. Back arched, head tipped back, the brutal way he thrusts his fingers back inside hits just the right side of pleasure. This overstimulation, his fingers up against that bundle of nerves, it doesn't take long.
They clench around his fingers once more, the sound wrenched out of them is hoarse and barely there. His name, the only half-coherent word they can manage. Lights burst in front of their eyes. Nails dig into his skin, holding tight because he's the only thing keeping them here and grounded.
This time, their orgasm doesn't just crash over them. It slams into them, harsh and unforgiving and perfect. Just like their fight, he doesn't go easy on them. Too often, they're underestimated, but Tartaglia doesn't.
This is dangerous, isn't it? If they're not careful, it'll change into something past infatuation.
They shake through their orgasm, face buried in his neck, their breaths quick and short. If they let themselves, they'd know their heart matches that rhythm. ]
You're-- [ They swallow hard, not bothering to catch their breath. Lips pressed close to his ear, they murmur, ] A terrible bully.
[ No note of upset in their voice, here. If they really didn't want it, they'd have shoved him away long ago. ]
[ Closing in on some magnitude of cruelty, his throat's just full of unruliness. It's dry even when he swallows, impure thoughts blistering to crash like a headstrong wave when he forgets to breathe in favor of watching.
Well, he's nothing but shameless when Mira's twisting so hotly where he's plunged his fingers inside to ride out the tremors, hole like a throbbing vise that's clutching to hold. But Tartaglia's pulling away too quick anyways, sticky-handed and thieving, even when he's no longer wedging their body apart to receive him. ]
I don't show anyone mercy, Mira. You should know that.
[ All he does is act up, completely the Tsaritsa's weapon and altogether a pawn.
Leaning hard on the moment of triumph, he's filthy with his mouth. Turned sideways to kiss them again, his lips slide closer to the ear than the cheek when Mira's too close, clumsily edging along their jaw. Preoccupied with tenderness, his dick's still raging hard. Sucking up or saving face? It's neither. Tartaglia's just contenting himself with all the intimacy when he's softly pushing them down by one shoulder, trying to line up his erection one-handed. Blind, sloppy touches continue as his cock drags along their inner thigh, until he can ease away long enough to see Mira clearly. ]
Your smile's wonderful. [ It needed to be said. Dire last words before he splits them on his dick, you know how it goes. ] Spread your legs a little wider. I'll behave.
[ Gone too soon, even when Mira's trying to catch their breath. Now it makes sense, why so many people let their guards down like this. They've never been more vulnerable. Funny, though, is that they want more. If it'll ever be enough is something they'll have to figure out for themselves.
Stopped dead in its tracks, Mira shoots down that thought. People come and people go. Leave their marks on them. It's a lonely thing, how Mira exists. Living is a whole other thing. Living means focusing on things other than survival, other than running and fighting and everything else they have to do to hold onto a scrap of themselves.
Tartaglia offers no mercy, and Mira doesn't expect it. He's honest, at least. There was a time when Mira could be honest, too, but that's far in the past. To themselves, to other people, to everyone they've met, they can't afford to be honest. Here, though (beneath him, in this world? It's unclear) maybe they could be. ]
Are you going to keep flattering me, or are you going to fuck me?
[ Obediently, they spread their legs. Greedy and needy, they trail their fingers along his shoulders, his chest, his back, drawing a new path along his scars. Unlike Tartaglia, they're the one trying to save face.
They don't look away from him, even as they reach down to grasp his cock and guide it toward their hole. Not even as they slide a hand to rest over his heart--if it's an unconscious move, it's hard to tell.
(It is, because tonight is the most honest they've been in such a long time.) ]
[ So long to any sense of focus left in him, dissolving now like ice that melts under sunlight. The feelings just come on strongly, something he can't conceal at all.
Hardly cordial, everything that wins out in him is what he can't stave off. Under the wasting touch of their hand, Tartaglia smiles again, sweet like the mood, glancing down at that hand where it rests over Mira's heart. ]
What else? I'll take care of you. [ It's only natural that he'd assume responsibility and let it take its toll on him. ] Keep going.
[ Taunt him some more as he juts his hips forward to enter them fully, the soft clink of his earring drowned out by the gasp that hitches behind his teeth. Shoving his dick inside, he's undone by the sensation of easing Mira's body open with the stretch. Pinning them down, the pressure errs toward inexorable, feeding inch after inch inside until he's sunk down to the base. Is he in all the way? Maybe. Out of shamelessness, like testing a sharp reflex, he thrusts just a little further. ]
[ At first, it's nearly too much. Not in the way they like it, either. Soon enough, though, they adjust to him. Nearly losing themselves in him and how he feels is a risk they're willing to take. Like this, it would be too easy for Tartaglia to break them apart, reduce the pieces to rubble. Less by fucking them, wrecking them.
(And looking at them like that and telling them he'll take care of them--)
More like taking those broken-off parts of them and using them as too-effective weapons once the night is over. They keep that in mind. Caution is an understated shield, they think, and they're almost too aware that he could do just that. No matter how he looks at them or says such earnest, sweet things, anyone is capable of it.
Like dust, they sweep those thoughts away for now. Instead, they focus on the slide of his cock inside them, that gasp, the sweet feeling of being helpless underneath someone. The gasps and whines and moans that fill in the distance between them are almost embarrassing, but it also feels too good to care. It's just because they haven't been with anyone in a long time, they tell themselves. ]
Don't hold back.
[ He's fully in, they think, until that last thrust punches the breath out of them. All they can do is hold on. Leg hooked around his hip, arms wrapped tight around him, they tug him close to kiss him. Filled with a sweet affection, they run their tongue along his bottom lip, a gentle request to let them in. ]
[ Arguably more unforgivable than poking fun at Mira's expense, Tartaglia bites down on the laugh threatening to escape his mouth. At this juncture, it might come off as mean. He's thoroughly disrespectful and gets away with far too much, but insincerity would be such a ruse. Bent up against them, he splits the difference with his terrible humor. ]
And take it easy on you? [ Is that gleefulness in his voice? Dare he refute them now? Yes. ] I'd never.
[ Fighting just to win all of Mira's attention, he rocks up into them, nerves roaring with sensation. Each thrust slides home, pulling out nearly all the way just to slam back and take in the distance when crushed to nothing.
It's the gasping that eggs him on, fumbling the kiss as he drags a hand down the jut of one hip to grab their ass. Stroking Mira from the inside with the length of his cock is a deranged feeling, slick-hot and fricative, so hard to overcome. As it stands, he's losing himself to it. Tartaglia angles hard like he can hit the prostate with enough force and push so deep that it'll be the pressure that does Mira in. ]
[ Luckily for him, their attention is completely on him. Not once have their thoughts wandered away from him the moment he'd pressed his lips against their scar. Enraptured is usually a strong word, but it's not strong enough to describe how they feel right now.
If they ever get used to it, it'll be too soon, and they'll have to chase after the feeling. At least Tartaglia will follow. Or more likely, he'll grab them by the hand and pull them along to find it. Overly eager and messy, but Mira finds it charming. Maybe they shouldn't, but giving up the control they cling so tightly to is too good.
If they believed in miracles, then coming here, to this world and meeting him, would be one. Stars erupting in their vision are a pretty good argument for that.
They think he'll drive them mindless, the way his cock drags inside them. Perfect and incessant, but it's nothing compared to the way he slams against their prostate. They drag their nails hard against his back, bite down on his shoulder. That desperate keening sound muffled slightly against his skin is a backdrop to the way they squeeze hard around his cock. Even the sting of tears at the corner of their eyes doesn't bother them. ]
T-- C-close--
[ If they're holding back on purpose, just to hang onto how this feels... well, that definitely isn't possible. ]
[ Watching Mira ruins his self-control, his grip on them veering toward filthy and obscene when they yield. But denying them never even crosses Tartaglia's mind. His hand is nothing but empty pressure over that naked stretch of skin, chasing this appetite for touching them every which way like he's trying to strike a moving target.
Then again, he's hardly good at being a person when he's more akin to an unruly tidal wave, licking up attention, feigning humanity like he hasn't held other people under the current. Maybe there's only wretchedness left inside; the vulnerable part of him that answers to a name like Ajax is locked away somewhere it can never return.
Even so, he spreads Mira out just to fuck them and nothing else, drowning in the scrape of those fingertips rushing over his shoulder-blades. Tartaglia's coming devastatingly undone; he draws his thrusts out, sinking his cock inside to make it last as long as he can and dragging the final, gleaming moments out into tenderness.
When he finally blows his load, it's a feeling that strangles even his nerves. Streaky with heat and cum, his dick's softening up but Tartaglia doesn't pull out just yet. The ache finds him regardless, hot and fathomless. Insolently, he reaches down with the intent to sloppily pump Mira off the rest of the way, despite their reservations. ]
Come on. Isn't it time— you stopped playing it safe? [ Running out of poise, his feelings stay exposed like a fraying wire. ] Show me who you really are.
[ Who they really are? A steep ask. Impossible, even, or at least very close to it. Desire, potent and overwhelming, it builds like a wave, cresting when his hand closes around their cock. Whether it's desire for more of this, to be fucked out of their mind or to let him see what they try so hard to bury deep into the marrow of their bones, they can't tell for sure.
Whatever it is, it's intoxicating and addictive. Would it be so bad to let go completely and place everything they are in his hands? Even this is more than anything they've allowed. They've played it safe for so long, as long as they can remember. Tightly controlled, their restraint is a barrier that's thinning. Tartaglia's a force on his own, threatening to pull them under and keep them there.
All they can think of doing is cup their hand around the back of his neck, to pull him down and keep him in place. Caught up in Tartaglia's heat and desire and the feeling of his hand on them melts just enough of their restraint. Pressing their face against his neck, it's a growl, low and closer to a snarl, that comes before they bite down hard.
Far from letting go entirely, but it's enough. Wrenched out of them, their cry is hoarse and breathless. Intertwined with it, his name, half-broken and closer to a sob as they spill over his hand. ]
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Could they really leave, though? That gaze isn't the only thing holding them in place. Warmth from another's body like this is hard to find. Cutting it off here and now would be the easier, kinder thing for them both. Cowardice has served them well this whole time, has helped them survive.
What is it about him, about this, that overrides that? It's not just his hand around their length, drawing out a gasp, a low moan. Terrified of falling apart completely, they hold onto his shoulders, rocking into his grip, and--
Oh. Mira swallows hard, then nods. Instinct nearly takes over and prompts them to ask if he's sure, but if he weren't, they know he wouldn't ask. ]
Yeah. [ They draw in a sharp breath, then laugh lightly. ] You're going to end up spoiling me, aren't you?
[ Spoiling is an understatement. This is the first time they've allowed it, allowed themselves to selfishly take instead of giving. ]
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[ In the service of degeneracy and these abstract boundaries between them, his grip splays out, like he can tamp down desire if he's only quick about it. Given all of these extremes in pleasure, Tartaglia drowns so easily. His touch pours over them only to pull taut at the last second, forcing them to fuck right into his fist with every other tug. Riding off of this high, there's so much scathing warmth here that it's a miracle he isn't burning clean out of his skin.
Insatiable with his touch, Tartaglia's fingers are stretched out, palming down their cock with deepening strokes. Beating them off isn't just a slick and unrelenting act, it's a bid for attention, trying to captivate them with just his hand when he pumps them from tip to base. It's probably a little filthy and obscene, letting all of his thoughts melt to nothing when Mira's hips cant forward with so much urgency. Tartaglia's hand flexes just once before clutching tighter, far more deliberate than before. Nothing that takes the edge off, voice unspooling by their ear. ]
I'll make you worse.
[ Sorry about roughing you up, Mira. ]
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Tartaglia doesn't hold back. Just the opposite: He pushes them past the limits they thought they'd known so well. No complaints here, though, because if they did they would have made him stop.
Undeterred and near-desperate for more, they fuck into his fist. Tartaglia's back is going to be a mess when all is said and done. Their nails dig in deeper, voice halfway to wrecked with every punched-out sound Tartaglia pulls from them.
Make them worse, huh? Mira turns their head and presses a hot, open-mouthed kiss to his neck before biting down. ]
I'd like to see you try, [ they manage, sliding a hand into his hair and pulling hard. Right into his ear-- ] Ruin me.
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Fingers forcibly uncurling, Tartaglia's thumbing down hard on the slit of their dick, groan just that side of keening, run so ragged. ]
Keep talking like that and I'll split you open. [ Vying for acknowledgement, he's thawing out. Even this soreness falling into his throat around those teeth is nothing to the aching length of his cock, left ignored in favor of beating Mira off. ] I wanna fuck you until you break. Think you'd let that happen?
[ Messy virgin sex could be fun? Consider it. ]
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Considering it? Of course they are. Even better if he fucks like he fights. Locking eyes with him, they don't bother hiding the way their face twists in pure pleasure, the way they arch their back and press their head back into the pillow, their own neck and throat exposed and slick with sweat. ]
If you don't fuck me until I cry-- [ Close, they're so close. Hips thrusting up into his hand, they don't look away, not for a second. ] --I'll kill you.
[ Tartaglia wants to destroy them. It makes them dizzy with pleasure, more than just physical. That desire is a powerful thing, and with one more hoarse cry, they spill over his hand. ]
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Normally, I'd... hold you to your word. [ It's a sweet promise, the remants of every failed attempt to strangle the dear life out of him lashing his skin. He'd welcome another go-around of their fight until he could crown Mira, lithe and warm and much too self-destructive, in utter defeat. ] ... But you're not cut out for that right now.
[ Tartaglia's much too young and a little unconscionable to regard the danger, looming over them to grip his own forming erection and beat off into stiffness. Only takes a few strokes, really, turned on and making a very bold attempt to splay Mira's legs open and press his palm along their inner thigh. ]
I only want you. [ Coy with all of his staring, his gaze flickers up only when he's pining for attention. ] Am I what you're after?
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For once, it's something much sweeter. Almost painfully, their breath hitches, and their eyes widen. There's no hiding from this or him. Terrifying, definitely... but maybe that's not at all a bad thing. Because Tartaglia's words, the way he looks at them, that touch against their thigh all leads to the same thought: They never stood a chance.
An answer doesn't come yet. It's hard to talk when words escape them, so their first answer is this: They wrap their arms around his neck and pull him down to kiss him. Filled with too many emotions to do anything but this, their kiss is fierce, desperate, like their life depends on it.
When they finally pull away, they press their palm against his cheek and touch their foreheads together. Trailing their other hand down between his legs, they wrap their hand around his cock and stroke one, twice, three times. ]
You are. [ Another kiss, sweeter and shorter. ] You're the only one I want, too. No one else.
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To that end, he's just some wanting creature, haphazardly ransacking his clothes where they're pooling on the bed. It's cold, the bottle of lube and the uncapped lid, more than a fair amount of it dribbling into his hand and onto the sheets when pouring it into his palm. He can't be neat with it. He doesn't bother, and it hasn't quite warmed up yet as he urges their legs to ease apart. All of this very literal dick-stroking doesn't distract him any, singleminded with his intent. ]
Watch me, then. Keep your eyes on me.
[ Going after Mira with the intent to shatter their nerves, Tartaglia can't help blurring the lines between pining and obsession. Urging a finger inside the confines of their ass is a shameless act, made to displace them; he's thumbing around the hole only afterwards, hand crooked as he curls the first finger. Very slick of him, like he isn't working to split Mira open on his touch from rubbing so incessantly. ]
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His gaze pins them in place. No matter what, they know they couldn't look away. They don't want to. There's something about being seen that leaves them equal parts terrified and wanting--wanting him, to feel him, to hold him tight and never let go.
Control is a tricky thing for them. They cling tight to it, because if they don't-- No, it isn't the time for that. Putting themselves in Tartaglia's hands, he's the first to touch them just like this. Too fast, too thoughtless, they'd let it happen as easy as breathing air.
He's the first they'll let inside in every way.
Mira's hands fly to his shoulders and hold on tight. Nails dig into his shoulders, and they stare up at him with wide, hazy eyes. Already half-lost in the curl of his finger, lost in the way he's determined to wreck them from inside, it's like nothing else exists but this. ]
T-- Tartaglia.
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Rubbing Mira to rawness from the inside, he's getting off on the messy, singleminded focus when its turned solely upon him alone. It's a hot, wanton feeling, stalled in place when all that politeness and decorum drops away from Mira's face so that deep, swallowing hunger takes its place.
Plugged up on his hand, Tartaglia scissors his fingers apart, heinous and sweet when he resumes shoving past the flexing rim and the taut ring of muscle. So maybe he's a little attention-starved as well, craving approval so monstrously that he smiles under these delights. ]
Give me your worst, too. I insist.
[ He won't quit the foreplay if they aren't halfway to unraveled and begging for it. ]
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Their worst, huh? ... That's not a promise they can make, because letting go that much is their worst fear. But-- maybe they can give enough. Maybe they can flirt with that line between them and the thing wrapped tight like a vice around their heart.
Tartaglia wants their worst, so they can trust him with just enough. They fist a hand in his hair, tight and unyielding. At the back of his neck, they curl a hand and yank him down, crushing their lips together. It's messy and sharp and desperate, teeth and tongue and fire. The heat of him and his closeness stokes that fire, leads them to press their thumb into the hollow of his throat.
Biting down on his lip hard, they tighten their grip on his hair. Tonight, they're louder than usual, gasping and moaning and stilted, hitching half-sounds. Stuck in place, they can't tear their eyes away. Tears prick at theirs, the sting drowned out by his determination to tear them apart. ]
Tartaglia-- [ Their voice cracks, close to shattering. ] Please, please, need more, need you--
[ They're so lost in him already, shaking and near breaking apart. The hand in his hair stays, but the other snakes under his arm and grips his shoulder. Clinging tight, they're so, so close, just from his fingers. ]
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Three days could stretch to three months in a place where no light could reach anyone alive, and the seconds elongate here as well. His perception of time is so warped. Lowering his head against the urgent, confining reach of a chokehold and Mira's other hand, Tartaglia's laughter sounds too much like it was pilfered out of him. ]
How could I refuse when you ask this nicely?
[ So kind, Mira. Not like he can wait, anyways, fingers tugged out where he's spread them open, only to jam them back inside. Out of some meanness, he's probing with immediacy, harsh where he's closest to their prostate. No more shallow thrusts of his hand, just pressure in the place where they'd clenched up hottest around his hand, lube-wet and plugging them. ]
I'll let you go first.
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The sound that spills from their lips is part relieved, part frustrated. All mixed up in another bitten-off almost-sob, it melts into a cry. Back arched, head tipped back, the brutal way he thrusts his fingers back inside hits just the right side of pleasure. This overstimulation, his fingers up against that bundle of nerves, it doesn't take long.
They clench around his fingers once more, the sound wrenched out of them is hoarse and barely there. His name, the only half-coherent word they can manage. Lights burst in front of their eyes. Nails dig into his skin, holding tight because he's the only thing keeping them here and grounded.
This time, their orgasm doesn't just crash over them. It slams into them, harsh and unforgiving and perfect. Just like their fight, he doesn't go easy on them. Too often, they're underestimated, but Tartaglia doesn't.
This is dangerous, isn't it? If they're not careful, it'll change into something past infatuation.
They shake through their orgasm, face buried in his neck, their breaths quick and short. If they let themselves, they'd know their heart matches that rhythm. ]
You're-- [ They swallow hard, not bothering to catch their breath. Lips pressed close to his ear, they murmur, ] A terrible bully.
[ No note of upset in their voice, here. If they really didn't want it, they'd have shoved him away long ago. ]
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Well, he's nothing but shameless when Mira's twisting so hotly where he's plunged his fingers inside to ride out the tremors, hole like a throbbing vise that's clutching to hold. But Tartaglia's pulling away too quick anyways, sticky-handed and thieving, even when he's no longer wedging their body apart to receive him. ]
I don't show anyone mercy, Mira. You should know that.
[ All he does is act up, completely the Tsaritsa's weapon and altogether a pawn.
Leaning hard on the moment of triumph, he's filthy with his mouth. Turned sideways to kiss them again, his lips slide closer to the ear than the cheek when Mira's too close, clumsily edging along their jaw. Preoccupied with tenderness, his dick's still raging hard. Sucking up or saving face? It's neither. Tartaglia's just contenting himself with all the intimacy when he's softly pushing them down by one shoulder, trying to line up his erection one-handed. Blind, sloppy touches continue as his cock drags along their inner thigh, until he can ease away long enough to see Mira clearly. ]
Your smile's wonderful. [ It needed to be said. Dire last words before he splits them on his dick, you know how it goes. ] Spread your legs a little wider. I'll behave.
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Stopped dead in its tracks, Mira shoots down that thought. People come and people go. Leave their marks on them. It's a lonely thing, how Mira exists. Living is a whole other thing. Living means focusing on things other than survival, other than running and fighting and everything else they have to do to hold onto a scrap of themselves.
Tartaglia offers no mercy, and Mira doesn't expect it. He's honest, at least. There was a time when Mira could be honest, too, but that's far in the past. To themselves, to other people, to everyone they've met, they can't afford to be honest. Here, though (beneath him, in this world? It's unclear) maybe they could be. ]
Are you going to keep flattering me, or are you going to fuck me?
[ Obediently, they spread their legs. Greedy and needy, they trail their fingers along his shoulders, his chest, his back, drawing a new path along his scars. Unlike Tartaglia, they're the one trying to save face.
They don't look away from him, even as they reach down to grasp his cock and guide it toward their hole. Not even as they slide a hand to rest over his heart--if it's an unconscious move, it's hard to tell.
(It is, because tonight is the most honest they've been in such a long time.) ]
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Hardly cordial, everything that wins out in him is what he can't stave off. Under the wasting touch of their hand, Tartaglia smiles again, sweet like the mood, glancing down at that hand where it rests over Mira's heart. ]
What else? I'll take care of you. [ It's only natural that he'd assume responsibility and let it take its toll on him. ] Keep going.
[ Taunt him some more as he juts his hips forward to enter them fully, the soft clink of his earring drowned out by the gasp that hitches behind his teeth. Shoving his dick inside, he's undone by the sensation of easing Mira's body open with the stretch. Pinning them down, the pressure errs toward inexorable, feeding inch after inch inside until he's sunk down to the base. Is he in all the way? Maybe. Out of shamelessness, like testing a sharp reflex, he thrusts just a little further. ]
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(And looking at them like that and telling them he'll take care of them--)
More like taking those broken-off parts of them and using them as too-effective weapons once the night is over. They keep that in mind. Caution is an understated shield, they think, and they're almost too aware that he could do just that. No matter how he looks at them or says such earnest, sweet things, anyone is capable of it.
Like dust, they sweep those thoughts away for now. Instead, they focus on the slide of his cock inside them, that gasp, the sweet feeling of being helpless underneath someone. The gasps and whines and moans that fill in the distance between them are almost embarrassing, but it also feels too good to care. It's just because they haven't been with anyone in a long time, they tell themselves. ]
Don't hold back.
[ He's fully in, they think, until that last thrust punches the breath out of them. All they can do is hold on. Leg hooked around his hip, arms wrapped tight around him, they tug him close to kiss him. Filled with a sweet affection, they run their tongue along his bottom lip, a gentle request to let them in. ]
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And take it easy on you? [ Is that gleefulness in his voice? Dare he refute them now? Yes. ] I'd never.
[ Fighting just to win all of Mira's attention, he rocks up into them, nerves roaring with sensation. Each thrust slides home, pulling out nearly all the way just to slam back and take in the distance when crushed to nothing.
It's the gasping that eggs him on, fumbling the kiss as he drags a hand down the jut of one hip to grab their ass. Stroking Mira from the inside with the length of his cock is a deranged feeling, slick-hot and fricative, so hard to overcome. As it stands, he's losing himself to it. Tartaglia angles hard like he can hit the prostate with enough force and push so deep that it'll be the pressure that does Mira in. ]
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If they ever get used to it, it'll be too soon, and they'll have to chase after the feeling. At least Tartaglia will follow. Or more likely, he'll grab them by the hand and pull them along to find it. Overly eager and messy, but Mira finds it charming. Maybe they shouldn't, but giving up the control they cling so tightly to is too good.
If they believed in miracles, then coming here, to this world and meeting him, would be one. Stars erupting in their vision are a pretty good argument for that.
They think he'll drive them mindless, the way his cock drags inside them. Perfect and incessant, but it's nothing compared to the way he slams against their prostate. They drag their nails hard against his back, bite down on his shoulder. That desperate keening sound muffled slightly against his skin is a backdrop to the way they squeeze hard around his cock. Even the sting of tears at the corner of their eyes doesn't bother them. ]
T-- C-close--
[ If they're holding back on purpose, just to hang onto how this feels... well, that definitely isn't possible. ]
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Then again, he's hardly good at being a person when he's more akin to an unruly tidal wave, licking up attention, feigning humanity like he hasn't held other people under the current. Maybe there's only wretchedness left inside; the vulnerable part of him that answers to a name like Ajax is locked away somewhere it can never return.
Even so, he spreads Mira out just to fuck them and nothing else, drowning in the scrape of those fingertips rushing over his shoulder-blades. Tartaglia's coming devastatingly undone; he draws his thrusts out, sinking his cock inside to make it last as long as he can and dragging the final, gleaming moments out into tenderness.
When he finally blows his load, it's a feeling that strangles even his nerves. Streaky with heat and cum, his dick's softening up but Tartaglia doesn't pull out just yet. The ache finds him regardless, hot and fathomless. Insolently, he reaches down with the intent to sloppily pump Mira off the rest of the way, despite their reservations. ]
Come on. Isn't it time— you stopped playing it safe? [ Running out of poise, his feelings stay exposed like a fraying wire. ] Show me who you really are.
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Whatever it is, it's intoxicating and addictive. Would it be so bad to let go completely and place everything they are in his hands? Even this is more than anything they've allowed. They've played it safe for so long, as long as they can remember. Tightly controlled, their restraint is a barrier that's thinning. Tartaglia's a force on his own, threatening to pull them under and keep them there.
All they can think of doing is cup their hand around the back of his neck, to pull him down and keep him in place. Caught up in Tartaglia's heat and desire and the feeling of his hand on them melts just enough of their restraint. Pressing their face against his neck, it's a growl, low and closer to a snarl, that comes before they bite down hard.
Far from letting go entirely, but it's enough. Wrenched out of them, their cry is hoarse and breathless. Intertwined with it, his name, half-broken and closer to a sob as they spill over his hand. ]